“God’s payback was to give my son autism” -Toni Braxton

She made a decision in 2001 which engulfed her life with guilt due to her Christian upbringing. She considered her autistic son was her punishment. Now she says, she see things differently. Continue to read….

In her new memoir, aptly titled “Unbreak My Heart,” singer Toni Braxton opens up about a painful memory from her past.

The 46-year-old Grammy winner wrote about an abortion she had in 2001 and how she once believed God had later punished her for it. “I was suddenly faced with a choice I’d never thought I’d have to make,” Braxton wrote of the procedure. “Amid my major misgivings about abortion, I eventually made the gut-wrenching decision.”

Due to her very religious upbringing — in the memoir the singer says that studying the Bible took precedence over homework when growing up — Braxton began to feel a strong sense of guilt over the abortion. “In my heart, I believed I had taken a life — an action that I thought God might one day punish me for … My initial rage was quickly followed by another strong emotion: guilt,” she wrote. Braxton’s guilt was so heavy that she began to believe that God’s punished her for the procedure by giving her son, Diezel Ky Braxton-Lewis, now 11-years-old, autism. “I believed God’s payback was to give my son autism,” she wrote.

However, the R&B music icon told Us Weekly that she now feels differently about her past. “When my youngest son was diagnosed with autism I feared that I was being punished for my earlier actions. I have since realized that my son is special and learns in a different way.”

Source: Huffington Post

4 Discussions on
““God’s payback was to give my son autism” -Toni Braxton”
  • God is love. He cannot pay evil with evil. What usually happens is that when we’re enticed or transgressed, we exposed ourselves to enemies attack and the enemy knows how to hit hard- including making you feel it’s god’s punishment.
    When we strayed as God’s children, the bible say we should confess our sin in other words agree with him that we are wrong and apologise. He is legally bound- by his oath and promise, to forgive us and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

  • I think that yes, it’s fair. As long as you have the support sytesm (emotional, social, financial) in place so that you will be able to care for both children, and provide for both of their needs which may be very different. As long as one of the kids is not neglected due to the needs of the other child, I think it could be a pretty fantastic experience for everyone involved I am an autistic and adopted only child parenting an autistic only child and I think that the one thing missing from our family is another child. If I were to adopt, I’d lean toward adopting a child with autism, as I can’t imagine raising a non-autistic child or attempting to balance raising one of each (for lack of a better term). I wish we had the option to add another child to our family, but I feel like I’m strapped already (I have rheumatoid/autoimmune arthritis and spine damage). Hope this helps Let us know what you decide!

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