The mother of a transgender teen who killed herself over the holiday season has made it clear she did not and still does not approve of what she believes was her daughter’s choice to be transgender.
Carla Alcorn of Kings Mills, Ohio, said in an interview that she and her husband did not ‘support’ their daughter Leelah Alcorn, while also refusing to acknowledge her daughter’s sex, using male pronouns and referring to her as ‘him,’ ‘he’ and ‘son’ throughout the interview.
Speaking with CNN on Wednesday, Carla said of her transgender daughter; ‘We don’t support that, religiously. But we told him that we loved him unconditionally. We loved him no matter what. I loved my son. People need to know that I loved him. He was a good kid, a good boy.’
When asked why they did not allow the teenager to have transition surgery, Carla explained that they didn’t have the money for anything like that and cited their daughter’s viewing of ‘inappropriate’ material as the reason for banning her from social media.
Carla added that Leelah’s siblings are trying to cope with the family’s loss as she also deals with the fact that some think she and her husband are ‘horrible people.’
See Leelah’s Suicide Letter
If you are reading this, it means that I have committed suicide and obviously failed to delete this post from my queue.
Please don’t be sad, it’s for the better. The life I would’ve lived isn’t worth living in… because I’m transgender. I could go into detail explaining why I feel that way, but this note is probably going to be lengthy enough as it is. To put it simply, I feel like a girl trapped in a boy’s body, and I’ve felt that way ever since I was 4. I never knew there was a word for that feeling, nor was it possible for a boy to become a girl, so I never told anyone and I just continued to do traditionally ‘boyish’ things to try to fit in.
When I was 14, I learned what transgender meant and cried of happiness. After 10 years of confusion I finally understood who I was. I immediately told my mom, and she reacted extremely negatively, telling me that it was a phase, that I would never truly be a girl, that God doesn’t make mistakes, that I am wrong. If you are reading this, parents, please don’t tell this to your kids. Even if you are Christian or are against transgender people don’t ever say that to someone, especially your kid. That won’t do anything but make them hate them self. That’s exactly what it did to me.
My mom started taking me to a therapist, but would only take me to christian therapists, (who were all very biased) so I never actually got the therapy I needed to cure me of my depression. I only got more christians telling me that I was selfish and wrong and that I should look to God for help.
When I was 16 I realized that my parents would never come around, and that I would have to wait until I was 18 to start any sort of transitioning treatment, which absolutely broke my heart. The longer you wait, the harder it is to transition. I felt hopeless, that I was just going to look like a man in drag for the rest of my life. On my 16th birthday, when I didn’t receive consent from my parents to start transitioning, I cried myself to sleep.
I formed a sort of a ‘f*** you’ attitude towards my parents and came out as gay at school, thinking that maybe if I eased into coming out as trans it would be less of a shock. Although the reaction from my friends was positive, my parents were pissed. They felt like I was attacking their image, and that I was an embarrassment to them. They wanted me to be their perfect little straight christian boy, and that’s obviously not what I wanted.
So they took me out of public school, took away my laptop and phone, and forbid me of getting on any sort of social media, completely isolating me from my friends. This was probably the part of my life when I was the most depressed, and I’m surprised I didn’t kill myself. I was completely alone for 5 months. No friends, no support, no love. Just my parent’s disappointment and the cruelty of loneliness.
At the end of the school year, my parents finally came around and gave me my phone and let me back on social media. I was excited, I finally had my friends back. They were extremely excited to see me and talk to me, but only at first. Eventually they realized they didn’t actually give a s**t about me, and I felt even lonelier than I did before. The only friends I thought I had only liked me because they saw me five times a week.
After a summer of having almost no friends plus the weight of having to think about college, save money for moving out, keep my grades up, go to church each week and feel like s**t because everyone there is against everything I live for, I have decided I’ve had enough. I’m never going to transition successfully, even when I move out. I’m never going to be happy with the way I look or sound. I’m never going to have enough friends to satisfy me. I’m never going to have enough love to satisfy me. I’m never going to find a man who loves me. I’m never going to be happy. Either I live the rest of my life as a lonely man who wishes he were a woman or I live my life as a lonelier woman who hates herself. There’s no winning. There’s no way out. I’m sad enough already, I don’t need my life to get any worse. People say ‘it gets better’ but that isn’t true in my case. It gets worse. Each day I get worse.
That’s the gist of it, that’s why I feel like killing myself. Sorry if that’s not a good enough reason for you, it’s good enough for me. As for my will, I want 100% of the things that I legally own to be sold and the money (plus my money in the bank) to be given to trans civil rights movements and support groups, I don’t give a s**t which one. The only way I will rest in peace is if one day transgender people aren’t treated the way I was, they’re treated like humans, with valid feelings and human rights. Gender needs to be taught about in schools, the earlier the better. My death needs to mean something. My death needs to be counted in the number of transgender people who commit suicide this year. I want someone to look at that number and say ‘that’s f***ed up’ and fix it. Fix society. Please.
(Leelah) Josh Alcorn
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This is serious oh hmmmmmmm
What a life.
I support Leelah’s parents totally. I’ll do same for my kid if he/she thinks towards dat line.Its satanic and so I never will support of it.
I must disagree, She felt trapped in a male body. She was misgendered at birth, this was not her fault. Let me ask you this; Let’s say you have a son that tells you that they are a girl. If you do not accept them and your daughter feels unaccepted and suicidal, would you rather a dead son, or a living daughter? This young woman took her life because part of society decided that gender should be based off of what private parts you have. Yes, I may sound like a democrat, but I am a roman Catholic, who believes that God loves all of his creation, and if he loves everyone, then we should try and do so as well. So, therefore I disagree with Leelah’s parents and your’s because Transgender rights are human rights.
Really strange @amanda
i would never support that… Sorry
I support the parents, it’s better the world judges them as insensitive parents than having God to contend wt.i know I shouldn’t say ds but good riddance to bad rubbish joor
So sad and strange. What a life.!!!
The devil is really at work. Chai!! see mentality.
God is not an author of confusion. He can never b wrong. D devil is d brain behind all deses transgender tins. May d Lord help us
Thumbs up to d parents.
What a wasted life
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