There is no doubt that famous TV personality, Toke Makinwa, is one strong woman.
In her soon to be released book – On Becoming which she says ”it’s not a tell-all but a must tell”, the 32-year-old Vlogger speaks of many things, from her childhood days, and the sad loss of her parents as a result of a fire incident, and how she fell in love with her ex-hubby, Maje Ayida, who nearly ruined her life – with a sex tape, side girlfriends, and many more.
READ ALSO: See Maje Ayida’s Public Apology to Wife, Toke Makinwa, for Cheating
Here are excerpts…
I got on my knees in front of him, my voice calm as I can make it. “Maje, you can’t keep lying. What is going on? He walks away, leaving me there with my heart in my hands. I see him pacing, like he is having a private conversation.
Then all of a sudden, he walks back to the living room, looks straight into my eyes and says, ‘She’s pregnant’. I fall to the ground.
‘What’s she having?’
‘A boy,’ he says.
‘How long have you known?’
‘I’ve always known…. It was what I thought I wanted,’ he says.
“Finally, I thought. He chose me! He has stepped up and he’s finally ready to make us a priority.
It was my wedding day. I was happy, yet I was waiting for something to happen. Maje had disappointed me three times before.
We would pick a date to go to the wedding registry and he would call it off…. We had discussed eloping, but he’d never committed to any plan.
It wasn’t until we shared our first dance to John Legend’s ‘All of Me’ that I finally believed that it had happened.
We got back together (after a quarrel because Maje took ‘an ex’ to a party he bluntly told Toke he wasn’t taking her to and he and the ex were ‘touching freely and kissing’)…
Maje invited me to Abuja…. As I was putting away my things I saw all kinds of feminine items – earrings on the dresser, sanitary pads in the drawer….”
The Other Woman:
“Who was that girl?” I asked
“That’s that girl”
“The girl I told you about.
Her friends are always calling me to say she really likes me and has a crush on me. Her name is Anita.”
“So that’s the Anita girl they say you are dating.”
“I’m not dating her.
How can I date someone that is always saying ‘can I come and see you? I’ll bring my friend that you think is cute’?”
I accepted Maje’s explanation and concluded that Anita was not important. So I’ll be with Maje and she’d call and I’d tell him, “The girl that has a crush on you is calling.”
And it would be nothing.
The Sex Tape and Bleaching:
“At some point while we were dating, Maje had asked if he could tape us having sex. This was a new one for me but I would do anything to keep my man, or so I thought, and so I obliged.
But I was nervous afterwards because I didn’t want the tape to get into the wrong hands….
I dragged the file back to his desktop, and I could tell from the stilled image in the video that the person in it was not me…. I clicked play and watched horrified as Maje had sex with Anita.
Watching that video, all of the inadequacies I thought I had dealt with over the years came rushing back.
I had been with Maje from when I was an immature teenager, through my twenties, and for most of those years, Anita had been the standard I had to live up to. I had lightened my skin at some point – Anita was half Lebanese and half Ibibio, and Maje made me feel like he preferred her lighter skin.”
Breakups and Makeups:
Months passed and I still couldn’t find a job (in London). And I was still heartbroken. Maje and Anita were officially an item, and I stalked them on Facebook. Maje would put her picture up and they would write on each other’s walls.
…one cold night as I got off the bus, I got a Facebook message from Maje. It read: ‘I miss you and I cannot deny or hide it, come back to me’.
We started talking again… I convinced myself that he had changed. Maje and I had been together for nine years, on and off, at this point, and it had been an unending cycle of hurt and betrayal. Every time we took ten steps forward in our relationship, we took fifty back.
Each time I gave up and let go, Maje would come after me and hold on so tightly till I gave in.
… there was a 70-day fasting and prayer programme at my church. I joined in: I was praying for Maje and I. On the final day, I prayed and asked God to reveal why Maje and I couldn’t find peace with each other.
…I opened my email address and typed Maje’s email address in. I had no idea what his password was but I was determined to get into his account…. I went through email after email until I found pictures of a boy that looked exactly like Maje….
I was sitting in the bedroom one day. There was a bottle of Dettol in the bathroom and a thought came, very strong, “Just drink it and die. What’s the point? The whole world is laughing at you right now. Just end it.”
The devil finds a way to fill your head with lies when you have just gone through a period. These lies can make you question everything, including the very purpose of your existence. Lies like: ‘You’re not good enough’
‘This is the best thing that could have happened to you and now it’s falling apart’ ‘This will end you’
When this lies came, God’s word provided a much-needed comfort and a reminder of my identity and His plans for me.
Moving on and Healing:
Maje hadn’t made it easy for me to move on. He’d begged like his life depended on me staying….
And then there were the outrageous comments:
‘Maje spent X amount of time with Anita so she wasn’t the mistress, Toke was’
‘She didn’t break your home, you did. You came between two people who loved each other by marrying him’.
…. That day’s topic was about making marriage work, and it hit me so hard that I cried like a baby. I wasn’t a virtuous woman; I was a girl! A girl with a daddy-void so large that she had all of her issues and expectations on a man who was still trying to discover his purpose.
All my mistakes became clear to me. I hadn’t lost my marriage to another woman. I had given my marriage to her.
While I’m not sure if I’ll find love again, I am sure of the contentment I have found in a God who’s got my back 100%.
Asides all this, Makinwa has got a soaring career in the media industry and with an Industrious personality she has been able to win hearts nationwide.
Tags: Anita Solomon, Failed Marriage, Maje Ayida, On Becoming, Toke Makinwa
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This is a huge roller coaster ride, thank God you have finally decided to leave.
Smh! I don’t even know what to say. Life is too short to be miserable
Hmmmmmmmmmm the most important is she left. Never change yourself because of a man, hence you become heartbroken.
Toke I love you dear. We are almost in the same shoes. I wept when I read your story. It is well with you.
So touching.. Am glad she finally left d looser.
That man is not worthy of her
Hmmmmm. What women see
Interesting story..so sad but this is a very common lifestyle in Nigeria,where women shares men and hope to be the lucky one he marry .thank God her left he at last..wish she learnt early enough but then such is life.
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