Pls try and give birth again nobody can stop you from Having your kids but try and give birth again you can easily get them by that time. If you love your kids you need to protect them, don’t talk about it again. They can harm that children after giving them to you spiritually. Be wise pray for your family restoration. You can also get them a visiting visa.Don’t let them trap you they may even destroy your marriage for that.I advise you to pray very well and be patient. Pls don’t do anything funny. Think about all the things that could go wrong.pls get your pastor.