I can’t take this anymore. I just can’t.
We have been married for 8 years with 2 children between us. He has been a good provider but I won’t necessarily call him a great father. There has been cases of him cheating on me before we got married but I thought that will stop after marriage.
I thought I will be able to satisfy all his sexual needs and fantasies but how wrong was I to think so.
He stopped cheating on me for a while or maybe he didn’t but I just wasn’t observant. My husband will cheat on me with anything in skirts, even with a maid, but now he has a regular girlfriend, who calls my home at odd times of the day.
I have done all I can to make him change, forgiving him, including praying and fasting. I try to look good all the time, if it’s the looks that he’s after. I’m almost a relic of myself because I have dropped 2 sizes after the birth of our last daughter. I was willing to stay and go through this for the sake of our children, but recently he’s started beating me. I am afraid for my life as I see him becoming very erratic.
Where is that attentive man that I fell in love with? I can’t believe he is the same person that almost choked the life out of me a few days ago. I dress all covered up these days, to hide bruises and scars. I want to run away with my kids.
My Pastor tells me to remember my vows of for better for worse and if I divorce him, I cannot remarry. God cannot be in support of this, he can’t.
He even beats me in front of the children. I can’t take this anymore. I am emotionally and physically drained. There has to be a way out, there surely must be.