I feel depressed as I type this message because I feel like I’m in the wrong marriage. I need help!
In fact, nowadays, I keep wishing I never met my husband. We have been married for two years now. We didn’t have any marriage counseling before we got married. Things started to change after I had our first child last year. My mum came and went and everything was fine. When my mother-in-law came, we didn’t really bond for different reasons even though we never quarreled.
This year, things started to go really bad in my marriage after my husband hit me and denied it. I had made plans to leave with my son before we eventually started counselling at church. Things improved a bit but it has been up and down for the past 4 months or so.
I had a baby 3 months ago and in addition to the stress of caring for 2 very young children, I am stressed about my marriage again. We don’t seem to agree on anything and whenever we have an argument, we don’t seem to be able to resolve it ourselves. We always have to involve the church counsellors. My husband likes to make threats and says some very nasty things when we have an argument. Whenever we argue he likes to insult my family as well. I have made it clear to him during counselling that it needs to stop but he hasn’t.
We haven’t been speaking to each other for 2 weeks now and it has stopped us from making very important decisions in our home. There seems to be no more love in the home. I am tired of living my life like this. I feel like leaving but I feel sorry for my children because they deserve to live with both parents.
I see how much he loves the children and I know it will break my heart to take them from him. I am very confused. Please I need advice on what to do. I can’t continue living like this. I have not had peace and joy this year.