Memoirs of a Mum: ‘Discovering My Middle Child’ – Chinwe Kalu
Chinwe Kalu
My third and middle child and second daughter was born with a full mane of hair, the right complexion and I was so excited. She looked right. She was pretty. I loved her as soon as I set eyes on her. However, she was born behind two older siblings, a boy and a girl. We got along well. She ate very well. She was quiet, the kind of baby who only cried when she had a problem. She sucked her two middle fingers. That made her even quieter. What more could a mother ask, especially with two older and far more boisterous children. She was supposed to be the last.
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We got into the habit of just letting her be. We fed her, tidied her up and put her in her chair. We just thought she was fine. And she was. Soon after, to my absolute amazement, I was pregnant with my fourth child, a girl, who was nothing like her immediate older sibling, my quiet girl. This last one came with a lot of energy and wanted to be everywhere. She talked early and began to walk before she was nine months; a really loud and active bundle of joy I must say.
Where did that leave my quiet baby? Left to herself most of the time. We did not realize what we were doing but she did, and she began to resent it. We had the habit of taking our kids to pre-school before they began school. When we took her there she read it differently. We would drop her off and take her older siblings to school and she resented it. How did she handle it? Every day, she would not say a word for the entire time she was there. On one of such days, her teachers raised the issue with me. They were obviously concerned she was not talking. It got worse, because at some point, she wouldn’t even talk at home.
I got worried and took her to the doctors to complain. They asked us to watch her for a while. I held my peace. At this time, I recognized I had a problem but did not know what it was. I knew I needed to do something but had no idea what. As God would have it, she fell ill and missed school for a day. I was home but she was with our housekeeper. I heard noise from a distance. Then I recognized the nursery rhymes they were singing. Her voice was loud. I was curious and went to the room the noise was coming from, and there she was singing, laughing, giggling and totally happy. I had never seen her like that.
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Then it dawned on me that she felt dumped every time we dropped her off at pre-school. That was why she resented it. She never went back. We moved her to the same school as my older kids even though it cost us more. It took her being at school with her siblings for my baby girl to begin to loosen up to me. She would play with everyone else but was cold towards me, she began loosening up. She had one friend in school and it was enough for her.
I thought I had finally got her on my side, not knowing that she had built a wall around herself. As she grew older, she did not get along well with her little sister who seemed to always be in her face. She did not get a chance to be with me because her little sister always got to me before she could. It was either her older siblings or her little sister. She built her world around herself and shut everyone out.
Then we relocated to East Africa. She hated it and withdrew even more. Her older siblings were now in boarding house and I thought she could have more time with me, but she was not keen. She did her own thing. I was worried but she did not do anything harmful or wicked or wrong as such but I could feel her rejection. She was impatient with her little Sis. Then thankfully, her older siblings had to join us and somehow, her relationship with her older sister began to blossom. I can’t explain it.
At this point, we began to talk to her about her feelings, her reservations, her assumptions, which were obviously wrong and her inbuilt walls. Sometimes, I was hard on her. I refused to walk around her as though walking on eggshells. We needed to confront the issue. She was old enough. With her sister around to talk all the silly girl talk, she had what she needed.
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So we encouraged her to begin to let go of her resentments and she did. Our faith also helped. I prayed a lot. It held her. So, she did not get into any of those life threatening habits we read about. I began to teach her about grace.
One day, she did something, can’t remember what, but her punishment was a two minute hug everyday and a kiss on the cheek for as long as I thought she needed it. The first few hugs were impossible. She would wiggle and complain but smile at the same time. To plant a kiss on her cheek was a battle. I kept at it. I would hug her and tell her how much she means to me. How God loves her. How she is a true princess. And she would keep nodding. She eventually began to look forward to the hugs. Her words did not suggest so, but the hugs spoke for themselves. It was an amazing process. We got to the place where the hugs and kisses were received with as much love as they were given.
I finally got my girl to receive fully the love I have always had for her. It took a while but I am grateful. Middle kids are very delicate. We need to manage them well. I almost lost mine. I cannot imagine what lay on the other side if I had. I am grateful to God for the wisdom to manage it all. My daughter came back to me.
that is it… it happens amongst parents,not only middle kids though, just be careful of how we handle our kids
lessons learnt. Children should be treated equally and be given proper attention
Every child is talented and should be given equal opportunity.
Great lesson 2 all mothers
Eh yah! All children should be treated equally. God will help us
Great.
Hmmm this is well taken note of. Its not easy but God is helping us.
Nice one
I so like this post.
Beautiful! Although I don’t think its only a middle child thing.this looked exactly like my sister, she was the youngest but the gap bw us (like 8yrs) made it difficult to bond even till now.I guess we saw her like a little girl& she saw us as meddlesome plus the fact she did not school in the state we were but came only for hols but thank God for this piece, I think I have work to do
Thanks for sharing I must confess I have learn a lot so far
Learnt’
Wow I love this
Kids will always be kids
lovely.I love this piece…
Thanks for sharing this great piece. Learning seriously to pay better attension
Thanks for sharing
Thnx for sharing
Thanks for sharing MIS
Am a middle child and I have an idea of how it is, I had a hard time feeling special or relevant
It’s not about middle kids but about a child’s personality.Parents just have to be careful
I also noticed it with mysecond his also kind of withdrawn but having been working very hard and his beginning to open up to me but still a little withdrawn to his dad
This is just like the story of my life, the only difference is that I was never bailed. My family calls me the secretive one,i am married with a son,and I have vowed that nothing like that will happen to any of kids, God willing
Thanks for sharing dis MIM going through a similar case in my family am really greatfull for these
thanks for this,wish some parents especially women and sisters will see this
Wow lovely. This is an eye opener. I really love this piece
Hmmm…a deep one.
Thanks for sharing
awwwwwww this post blessed my heart????
I dont. Think it is a middle age thing.Every child comes with his or her unique qualities.what we should do as parents is to study our children ,provide equal opportune ties for them then you will discover their strengths and weaknesses.Then you work on them and encourage them to hold on to their strengths.
I am a middle quiet girl who never experienced the attention of my parents, now I am 30 and married but I can’t bring myself to sitting down with them to have a free conversation though I don’t hate them. I am so reserved that I can’t even keep a friend, The only friend I have is my husband.