Dear MIMsters: I’m Beginning to See That My Marriage Was A Mistake From The Very Start

My marriage was a mistake from the start.

I got married after a year’s courtship. Exactly three months after our marriage and when I was two months pregnant, trouble started.

My husband started drinking and sleeping out. All efforts to get him to stop proved futile. The entire nine months of my pregnancy was hell for me as crying became my source of happiness.

Our families and other neutral people came in to help by speaking to him but all without success.

My safe delivery was a miracle, yet my husband feels no remorse after sleeping out and coming home drunk and dirty. He has never offered an apology or an explanation for his acts. He pretends nothing happened and tries to have sex with me as an apology, which I always refuse to oblige him from day one.

I feel disrespected and deceived by my husband.

My baby is only seven months old and my husband is still at it. He wo0uld sometimes falls on my baby and I whenever he’s drunk. I can wholeheartedly confess that I now passionately hate my husband.

With all sincerity, he is responsible with providing but I don’t find happiness in anything he does for me and our baby. I never want my child to grow up in such an environment. I have fasted and prayed and I am already tired.

I am fully convinced that this marriage was a very big mistake in the first place. Please advice me on what else to do as my only option now is divorce.