Dear MIMsters: My Bad Behaviour is Killing Me But I Can’t Help It

My bad behaviour is killing me but I can’t help it. I don’t know what to do.

I am 28 years old. I have been in several relationships but none of them have worked out well due to my anger issues. I stammer, therefore I get angry easily. I have prayed and tried to control it but still I find myself doing the same thing I said I won’t do again and it’s really bothering me.

The second issue I am dealing with is that I developed feelings for guys who are rich and live abroad. While we are dating, I will be disturbing them with marriage talks even when they tell me they ain’t ready yet. If another guy approaches me and he is not cute, rich or from a rich home, I will push him away with my rude attitude. And each time these my rich guys complain that they are broke, I will find myself losing interest gradually.

I seriously don’t know if this is love or lust but this is what I have been battling with for years now.

Recently, my friend posted her wedding invitation on Facebook. I went through the guy’s profile and noticed that he lives abroad and is from a rich home. I’m envying her now and wish to be like her. I go to the gym every weekend to workout so that I will be slim while my friend that is getting married this Saturday has a big stomach. Yet, she ended up with a handsome rich guy and she’s also from a rich home. I’m so depressed and sad.

I’m a graduate, waiting for service and currently dating someone who is studying medicine abroad. He loves me so so much and tries to provide for my needs but he’s not from a wealthy home and doesn’t really have enough money. He’s a student and also into business. Each time he complains of not having money, I find myself losing interest and we end up quarreling.

He will always be the one to come around and beg. He’s 31 years old and planning to return in December this year so that our families can meet. Honestly, I don’t know what to do again. I am struggling with so many things and don’t know what to do.