Dear MIMsters: How Can I Forgive My Mummy?

My mummy is wicked and heartless.

She had me out of wedlock and after many years got married to another man who was a teacher. That was when my suffering started. When she was about to give birth to her triplet boys, she sent someone to bring me down to live with her hubby. Then, I was just six years old.

To cut the whole story short, she started maltreating me and would beat me with a stick for any slight mistake and I would run for my dear life. I would sleep outside for days without food nor water in tears. If I refused to run to avoid sleeping outside that means, I would be left with wounds all over my body and a  swollen face.

Her husband on the other hands, was abusing me sexually, though I refused to give him my virginity but gave him my anus so that I could continue my education. These continued until I finished my secondary school.

One day, my step father told my mother to allow him sleep with me so as to check if I’m still a virgin or not. My mummy  agreed. I refused totally that day and I ended up sleeping outside for one week without food or water.

When I finally got a job and was paid my first salary, I gave it to them as my first fruit. Now, my step-dad is late and I am married with kids but don’t know how to forgive my mother. My husband has been of great help to my mum, yet I don’t know how to forgive my mother because I am still hurting. She respects and cares for her children more than me even till tomorrow.

Last year, when I was pregnant, my children and I travelled home to stay with her for days. I fell ill but she didn’t even allow me to eat until around 4 p.m. My kids and I fed on snacks. She’s done so many things ro hurt me my husband has no knowledge of.  How can I forgive her?