I am a 27 and I regret building my marriage on lies and deceit.
Hubby and I met years ago and started out as friends, then he travelled abroad. I lied to and deceived him from day one. I even mistakenly got pregnant for a married man. When he came back to Nigeria, I made him believe it was his but later aborted the pregnancy. He trusted me and believed everything I told him.
We got married last year and planned to relocate abroad. Three months ago, I decided to confess it all to him. I started by pleading for his forgiveness, told him about the pregnancy, and told him that I am still in love with my childhood love. I told him that I only married him because I needed an accommodation since my wicked brother’s wife threw my sisters and I out of their house. I told him my family will hold him responsible if anything happens to me because they didn’t consent to our marriage as he’a from another tribe. By the time I finished my confession, he wept for hours.
I am telling this story now because I am consumed with guilt and concerned that I have built my marriage on a shaky foundation of lies and deceit. I should not bring children into it. 2. I also feel for for him. He didn’t deserve all I did to him and I feel he should know the truth and move on to find his wife. 3. I thought my childhood love will take me back when we saw again after so many years and wanted to be single to receive him, but he told me he has a girlfriend he loves so much. I also felt that if I die now, I will go to hell fire but if I confess it all and ask for his forgiveness and truly repent, God will forgive me and I will make heaven.
Please advice me. Should I remain in a marriage built on lies and deceit? Or should I leave him to move on with his life? He has a very good heart.