Am I overreacting or am I making the right decision with my marriage?
My husband cheats. He wants me to accept and live with it.
I work and contribute my income to run the house. Sometimes, we share the bills 50/50.
My major problem is he doesn’t care for me, this man can keep malice for a year. Even if I catch me with his side chick, he’ll never apologize. I will still be the one to beg and beg until we settle.
He works in a different state and sometimes comes home after a month or two. When I call to check on him, most times, he won’t pick. If I call his number more than twice, he’ll give me the insult of my life.
Recently, I had a baby. My pregnancy was a very difficult one. I was referred to a different hospital but my husband never cared. I bought the baby things my self.
The day I gave birth to this child, I almost died but God saved my life. That very day, he said a bike ran into his car and damaged it, meaning the innocent baby and I brought bad luck.
Mimsters, this guy practically abandoned me and the baby. I paid the hospital bills, got home, named the child and he never called. I still called to check on him, most of the time, he won’t pick and never called back.
He finally came home almost two months after the baby was born. I did everything within my power to make him comfortable. I dressed well, cooked, and made my self available.
Two days later, he started keeping to himself and stopped talking to me. I asked him what I did wrong, he refused talking to me. I left him alone but continued doing my duties as a wife.
On the seventh day, I saw a chat between him and one of his girlfriends. I couldn’t hold my anger, so, I confronted him and he almost beat me up with my baby.
Honestly, I am tired of this kind of life. I have prayed enough. I am not even looking bad as a woman. I work and also contribute to the house, yet he makes me feel less of a woman. I am tired of apologizing for what I did not do.
I am tired of begging.
I have asked him for a divorce already which is not a bad idea to him but he has asked me to move out of the house. Mimsters, we just moved into this house and I spent over 500k as my contribution to it. Now, I am begging him to allow me to stay in the house since he is not working here. I don’t have any money now because I took a loan to clear the hospital bill.
Please advise me, am I making this right decision? Honestly, I am down emotionally and very depressed. I can’t cope anymore. Please don’t tell me to pray. I am a prayer warrior I can even go on three days of dry fasting. Am I overreacting or am I making the right decision?