I am typing this with a heavy heart. I have been married for almost 12 years now to a man with a heart of stone. I have four kids, both boys and girls.
Throughout this marriage, I have suffered emotional, physical and verbal abuse in this marriage but I left all to God who has been my strength and strong hold.
I married a man who doesn’t appreciate anything about me and my family, instead he appreciates and respect outsiders.
OK, I resigned from my job because of my kids with the promise of him helping me to start a business of my own but up till now, nothing. Instead, what I have been getting from him is trouble and malice.
Before we moved to a new place, I loaned him money that I saved when I was working. It was about 200k but up till today, he has not paid me back. Instead, he told me to be reporting to his shop to help out which I have been doing for peace’ sake but he’s still not satisfied.
I have to write down everything I sell and make daily accounts before going home. He collects all the money realized from me without giving me anything accept the money I need to cook.
Yesterday, I got back late from the shop because I had to stop to shop for food so that I can cook. Since I was so late and couldn’t meet up with cooking, I suggested we manage our leftovers till the next day. I planned to wake up early in the morning to cook. I am by no means a lazy woman. I do all my house chores, cook almost everyday and without a maid. My kids are the only ones helping me in their own little way.
So, when he came back, he told me he wanted to eat the leftovers. I told him that I thought he would eat noodles because that’s what he likes so my kids and I can eat the left overs. He then said that I should go and eat the leftovers but I told him not to worry that the kids and I will eat fruits so he can eat the food but he didn’t answer me.
He took his shower and rejected the leftovers while the kids and I ate our fruits and went to bed. In d morning, I greeted him, said my morning prayers, and told him that I want to talk to him.
In a gentle voice, I asked him why he rejected the leftovers last night and I poured out my heart to him, telling him all that I have endured just for peace to reign.
Yet, he didn’t utter a word to me and left for the shop. After cooking, I went to the shop. He didn’t talk to me as he completely ignored me. I just sat down there, looking at people.
I felt humiliated and was totally ashamed of myself, wondering how I ended up with this kind of man with a heart of stone. He enjoys keeping malice with me and I end up begging him just for peace to reign. Now, I am totally tired of begging and praying for him.
I have a small amount of money which I want to start a small business with. I want to sell food but I have not seen a space yet. Should I continue going to my husband’s shop or should I look for a means of doing my own thing? It’s obvious that my husband is not ready to help me with any dime.
I know he’s also cheating on me but I won’t let that weigh me down. I have been performing my duties very well by all means without any reciprocation from him. I am tired of this man.